Gut or self-sabotage: learning to distinguish between the two!

Self-sabotage or following your gut?

Such a strange sensation when you are so used to following your heart [gut] and then you deliberately go against it to see if it is so or if you are sabotaging the relationship.  It's tricky trying to distinguish between this but also in that you are not repeating the same patterns that have left in the current space you are experiencing! Running for the hills!

I feel ready to immerse myself and love abundantly with the person that blows my fringe back; with my heart, body and soul.  Someone that fills all 3 'gaaitjies' and I don't have to compromise on any one of them.  I am continuing on this journey of lovemaking and lovefinding  through heartmaking!  Universe come shower me with love!


Day 9 of 365 heartmaking

Live and Love in excess

Read a billboard on my way home last night, it read 'do everything in moderation, except one thing: Life!'

Something to ponder - does moderation limit living?  I've always had a good balance in my life but lived in excess at times too. Maybe it's time to screw the moderation and live [love] in excess!

That will be my motto for the coming week: Love in excess 


Day 6 of 365 hearts

Loosen your laces

Really awesome things come into being when you "let the universe be your guru."

I'm one week into the Artists Way to recover my creativity and so much has already happened - this blog included!

For a control freak like myself its amazing to start listening and hearing yourself - the answer is in your big toe, just gotta loosen the laces and give it some air.

Try it, the constant throbbing you're used to stops really quickly and you'll wonder why you didn't give yourself a chance ages ago!

My first little heart [only 364 to go]

The first day of lovemaking and lovefinding!

Inspired by 365heartsprojects.blogspot.com and the feeling of loss I have decided to also embark on this project and create a new heart every day.  This I hope will show me how much love I already have in my life but also how much I long to share my love with someone.

This is totally unplanned but inspired but the bottle of vino and cherry cigarette that I am now smoking [and drinking] and the longing to be more creative and recover my inner creative beauty - and to hold myself accountable!

So here goes to a year of lovemaking and lovefinding!